Trust n Obey for there is no other way

  But a figment is this bubble of thought if compared to the bubble wrap of thoughts of the world. Yet, every word matters, every syllable and letter, to God who is always listening and always being the caring and patient Father He is. When i feel so common, so insignificant, time and time again he just wants to prove me wrong. I wonder, what did i ever do to deserve this love and then i remember....nothing :) He has loved me before i was anything, He has loved me when i was unlovely, He loves me even when i mess up and He will always love me eternally. And i love Him because He has first loved me, i love Him because He loves me even when i was nothing and before something :)

  You know that feeling you get when you just know that everything will be okay? That no matter the horrors of the circumstance you're in, that it'll just be okay in the end? Well that's what i'm feeling now. You see, it's the holidays again but my mind has been at work constantly about all these worries and responsibilities and dilemmas that i have forgotten one of THE most important God rules: Let go & Let God. 'sighs' i had it coming (the learning the lessons the hard way and all) I heard this phrase during the Easter service 2 weeks back and was just too afraid to do so. When WILL i learn huh? :P haha

  I'm this girl who needs to plan her future but doesn't know where to start or what her  real passions in life are. I'm this girl who wants desperately to go for her youth's camp but who's school days clashes with it. I'm this girl who is in charge of prayer meetings for youth but is afraid of not doing a good enough job because 1) She is not diligent with God time. 2) Cause she is afraid for speaking in crowds or praying for that matter. Then there's this week's duty of doing youth announcements (PUBLIC SPEAKING :O 'blanks out') Finally, catching up on real&actual revision of things like CHEM or MATH :S ahhh the pure excitement i tell you! -_-

Oh weellll, now that i know i needa Let Go and Let God.....all THIS 'points to the above' will have to be given up to God :P now let's be realistic, i ain't the only one who has trouble handing decisions of my own life to someone else even if it is God. It isn't easy to trust that an unseen future to us will be okay, we are human after all. We worry.....A LOT :P no wonder there are so many cases of high blood pressured people these days :O haha, 'inhales' 'exhales' 'trusts' 'obeys' 'seestheclockrealizingitisalmost4inthemorningandquicklytriestosleep :P'  
GOODNIGHT WORLD! :D