Well today was the first day of college 'joy'. Staying on campus in KL with a senior as a roomie. Must admit as afraid and odd I thought I'd feel, it feels almost natural at this point and time. Perhaps the full reality of it hasn't fully sunk in yet i suppose. I do miss my own bed though, the cupboards here have odd tiny black dot-like bugs, the girl's kitchen is soooo dirty (dirtier compared to the guy's one too) since it's a common kitchen and i'm gonna have to learn to regularly clean my own toilet and room :P haha, but other than that I guess it's been good. I think if i missed anything right now, it'd mainly be the comfort of familiarity. The internet here is pretty crappy too :/ so other than socializing with people i barely know, it does feel pretty lonely.
I think I should get like loads of picture frames, more food and another pillow when I next go back home. I knew I should've brought both my pillows :( Apparently I'm in for another 2 years of intense workloads judging from our first day. Introduction day's are considered only like a miniscule pinch of the iceberg. I get that it's supposed to be the easy day but the way they made the coming months sound like was like woah O.o 'sigh' what did I get myself into?
And did I mention how terrible I am at socializing? Never know what to say :/ butttt I guess it's better to just be myself than be something I'm not, less they end up not really liking who I really am. The first time I met my roommate was like sooo akward. My family was in the room cause I was just moving-in and she came in much later while they were in it. You can only imagine the dilemma I was in :/ cause I'm not entirely comfortable with making new friends as it is, doing it in front of my parents added to the pressure. Although, it turns out she seems pretty nice. I'm actually starting to like my room despite the cupboards and sorta dirty shower area (it's separate from the toilet O.o yes, I know). The previous girl stuck glow in the dark stars on the ceiling to match the constellation and it's gorgeous at night :D ehehehe, I know, I know!
Ah well, guess it's the start of yet another new journey in life. I'm really hoping I'll enjoy it though. I know with me, it's a constant battle between happiness and loneliness turn sadness. Don't know bout other people but sometimes it gets really bad with me to the point where I feel the need to just curl up in a ball on the ball and sleep the emptiness away. Guess I really need to pray more and talk to Him more though :/ haven't been doing that lately. Oooo, half an hour till dinner! haha, my year group's going to a nearby mall for dinner (so we don't need to cook) :P until next time!
