Listening to songs and feeling only a bit happier. I knew I was down but how low could one go? I am a teen, I am a human, I am a person, I am on with emotions, I am me. Why would anyone not see that? How could they not see that? but yet, they look past the obvious and step upon the thin glass that serves for what little protection it can for this soul. Trying each time to find the pieces broken behind the tears that keep them from being seen. Each time it gets thinner, who will come to give me more or help me find my missing pieces?
The laws of life are never broken, disobeyed but never broken. One law being if life throws something at you, you must try an try again to get back up. Disobeyed? Yup. Broken? I believe it stand firm mocking me in the face. Cruel isn't it? How the only way to be better is to become worse? Feeling pain that you know is suppose to be good for you cause it builds you up but feeling is different thing and it hurts the core and sometimes consumes you like an endless black pit threatening to swallow you up. The fear isn't the pain, it is the being lost and being lonely, it is the fear of not being found and realizing you are nothing to everyone.
I would think one of the most inspirational songs that perk me up is 'Skyscraper' by Demi Lovato. Common, I know but it helps my soul. Soulful songs often do that, touching certain string of something deeper than your heart- your soul. It builds me up though I may fall again. Trying and conquering your fears knowing there is a possibility of defeating it is better than falling and letting your own fear defeat you and letting you suffer right? I mean if you die, then think about those who love you or need you, they'll be in pain more than your dead self. Plus, a striving person who aims and achieves can change the world by changing those around then rather than letting those corrupted people change it but for the worse.
Oh well, i guess that's all the things i need to let out of my bulging soul for a while. Considering i haven't written for a long time. Not that many people read these and I'm basically talking to myself but yeah :) I feel better now. If you've read this, I'm sorry if it was a waste of your time but I needed someone to talk to and there wasn't anyone willing to listen :( so yeah....Mr. Write was the only one left to turn to.
