Perspective views about a situation that is life......

Is it wrong to be sentimental? To want something out of life? To seek or have a dream? I guess not....but.....only if it isn't right in His eyes or if conscience tells you otherwise. It is kinda sad isn't it? When you don't know who to trust or who to search for. Its like you are lost in a forest of gold and jewels sparkling like the endless waters of clear day, written in light given by a sun that is calm and peaceful. It is so,so pretty.....but all you are doing is trying to find something else because you are alone, you are so,so alone.

  A million galaxies away, maybe a billion if it existed would be some undiscovered place never ventured upon. Of course people would want to find, discover and conquer. They'll probably say it is because they're trying to find a 'good' use for it. Is that ever going to be a 100% true? besides earning money for a family or the poor who really need the dough, IS it going to be true? History repeats itself, no man is that good. That's just the way it is and how it always will be.

  Strange thing is, as humans we CAN change but a lot of times we just don't want to or fall back into the same pattern of things and leave it at that. Yes it is a cynical way of thinking but the truth hurts! and the phrase can be ever more true than this if one would step into the lowliest of places just to see how it is like.

  I am constantly trying and falling, forgetting and not seeing. Feeling so very confused and hurt because the world is so beautiful but all I see sometimes is how lonely I am because so many around me aren't like me or don't see the things I do. I miss who they were, I miss who I was when kids would be kids and adults would be adults. I guess that is how bad reality is, when you realize whether you like it or not the time has come and you need to fall in order to fly.....if you can at all....


  I guess different people are different but at the end of the day what's the outcome? The forest is so beautiful yet not looked at. The forest is so huge but all I do is feel trapped because I am only looking for one thing. The forest is not the end, yet I think not to look further.

  God has a plan bigger than the biggest star(that's by the way more than 10 times bigger than our sun) that exist in galaxies beyond and universes unseen that are unseen to us. After all, He created them. The end will come, are we ready or are we still running in a forest like me? Looking for things and people IN the forest instead of trying to see the greater good of the forest and what lies BEYOND it?

Romans 7:14-20

New International Version (NIV)

 ¹⁴ We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. ¹⁵ I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. ¹⁶ And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. ¹⁷ As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me.¹⁸ For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.^[a] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. ¹⁹ For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. ²⁰Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.